I am happy!!!

Sometimes that's all you need to say!! 

Do you ever just feel like no one can be trusted?  That no one really is thinking of your best interest?  Do you ever feel like life is so unknown that it is sometimes scary to truly live?  Sometimes I just feel like I am so alone and that everything I am thinking is totally off base.  It is a feeling that I can’t seem to shake sometimes.  I want to be so strong, but yet seem to always come off weak.  I am the confident one, the strong one, the one who has it all together, the one who reaches for the stars, and never holds back no matter what.  Right?  Is it really a horrible thing to be vulnerable and open?  Maybe that is the way we are supposed to be.  Maybe we are supposed to be so broken that the only one who can heal us is God, but then would we ever really reach for him before we reach for anything else in this world?  Do we ever just fall to the ground and remain there until we are picked up into Gods arms and Gods arms alone?  Are we ever really truly 100% honest in the things we say and do?  Does honestly even still exist in this world?  If we were truly unmasked would we still have any one standing beside us?  Does baggage always have to control our lives?  Is baggage really that big of a deal?  Do we all have to bend, twist, mold, and break the rules?  What are the rules?  Do we really invest in the people that God truly wants us to invest in?  Where are we in the lives of the lost?  Does getting out in the world mean conpromising your faith?  Can't it be done and still make an impact?  What are the true joys in this life and what are the ones that seem so wonderful at the time and then hurt soooooo bad when they are ripped away?  Can you ever just find the thing that you are searching for and be satisfied and have no fear of being hurt?  All I have tonight is questions..... will they ever be answered or are we doomed to figure them out alone?  Maybe we aren't supposed to know the answers, but then where do I go from here?

Confused and Waiting?

Life is sweet!!

I love having my own house, going to K-state, and just partying it up with my friends!! 

Busy week this week, but nothing I can't pull through!!

Have a good week and leave me messages lol!!

~ Kaleigh

This summer is going really well so far!!!  I am crazy busy and I wouldn't have it any other way!!  I also got a new car that I totally love!!  I am working two jobs which adds up to about 70 hrs a week!!  I am headed out to Nebraska this weekend for a family reunion and I am totally excited 1) to have a weekend off, 2) to see all of my family, and 3) just to have fun, laugh, enjoy time with the family and of course work on my tan!!!  I miss all you tons and tons, but we will be together again soon :).... and I have my own house next year so you will all have to come visit like 24/7!!!  Hope this summer is going amazing for all of you.... keep me posted on anything and everything that happens!!!  Lots of LOVE!!!

~ Kaleigh

So lately I have been just having fun and trying to make the most of my last few days with my Manhattaners!!!  Leaving is sooo bitter/sweet..... part of me is ready, but then there is still the side that is sad to leave!!  I think this summer is going to be really good for me tho.... I need to be around my roots.... my friends and family that know the true me.... and I don't have to hold anything back!!  That is going to be a wonderful feeling!!  Sometimes I feel like people don't even know me and I'm sure that is partly my fault, but then again sometimes I don't feel like people really try to dig deep here.... it is all surface level.  I am a person who thrives off of being real with people and not sugar coating things and here sugar is the main ingredient to most conversations!!  Not that I haven't had a great time here and.... I truly have found and made some amazing friendships!! 

Life is something that you just have to take with "a grain of salt" and learn to "make the most of things and go with the flow".... these are the lessons that I have learned this year and they are something that I am trying to daily apply!!  Soooo... I know that I am just rambling, so don't feel obligated to read this whole blog... but it is just some things that I have been thinking about a lot lately!!  One more year down.... that is soooooo CRAZY!!!  Life goes by too quick....... is that a good thing or a bad thing???  I guess it is up to you!!!  We finished another year, now what and where are we going throughout the next year........................................ good question!!